Full Circle ~

FULL CIRCLE

You walked through my world;
In this dance we call life,
Dancing with me in joy,
Dancing with me in strife.

You gave me the song,
And gave me the chance;
To learn about love,
When you taught me to dance.

It was not just the music,
Nor the steps that we made;
But is now in sweet memories,
That never will fade.

For love was your music,
And life was your song;
You taught me the dance,
And how to be strong.

You showed me what love was,
Even in your goodbye;
Now we've come full circle,
In this dance we call life.

So, dance with the angels,
And may you find rest;
Your song's in my heart,
And my life, fully blessed.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

This is a picture of Kambrin with grandma; her youngest heart medicine. It was her birthday the day after Grandmas. I miss Grandma so much. I think our family is still struggling with the deaths and separations that endured our family in this last year. My wedding anniversary will be coming up shortly and with that I will always remember that 12 days later our family started a whirl spin. I can only hope that the strength of grandma starts to shine in on all of us. Maybe we should do what Kacy said, and all sit down and make her a birthday card and send it on it's way.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GRANDMA,
Love forever your little Mountain Girl

Happy Birthday Grandma!!

This upcoming August 4 would have been Grandma's birthday. My birthday is the 6th, so we always shared a close birthday, as well as the both us being Leo's together.

It has only been five months since Grandma left us. And it feels like an eternity has passed. I know that she would not want any of her kids or grandkids to still be hurting and missing her, but I know we all do still miss her.

I still cannot believe that she is gone. Last year about this time, I would have been sending her a card and calling her up and wishing the both of us a Happy Birthday. I think instead, this year, I will be taking flowers to my Mom's and Grandma's headstone in the Clinton cemetary to honor her birthday.

The scrapbook page above, is dedicated to the memory of our dear Grandma and with that being said, Happy Birthday Grandma. And I love you.

~ Untitled Poem ~

A friend of mine emailed me this poem. It says a lot about how I feel about life in general. I thought I would post in on the blog for everyone to read and share. Thanks Whitey for sending it to me. :)

Untitled Poem

I have seen a mother at a crib - so I know what love is;
I have looked into the eyes of a child - so I know what faith is;
I have seen a rainbow - So I know what beauty is;
I have felt the pounding of the sea - so I know what power is;
I have planted a tree - so I know what hope is;
I have heard a wild bird sing - so I know what freedom is;
I have seen a chrysalis burst into life - so I know what mystery is;
I have lost a friend - so I know what sorrow is;
I have seen a star-decked sky - so I know what infinity is;
I have seen and felt all these things - so I know what life is.

~ Anonymous

Debra Denise Godfrey and Betty Louise Quigley

Resting in Peace... Finally
Megan and Ashley at Grandma's gravesite

Well, it's officially in, the headstone made its way to the grave this weekend. Just in time for Memorial Day. After almost being put on the wrong grave and missing in action for a week or two...

The girls and I took some flowers and a pinwheel to the grave today. My mom loved pinwheels.

The stone is beautiful. Crystal - if you are reading this, you did a really good job with it. Thanks sis! My mom also loved the color pink, we thought a pretty pink stone would do the job.

The inscriptions also look really good. We wanted to be sure that even though Grandma didn't get buried, that she had a final resting place and somewhere to be was remembered as well. And we thought since these two wonderful and feisty ladies were inseperable and always together in life, that it only seemed fitting in the afterlife.

It seems like only yesterday that we lost Mom and Grandma. But it feels like an eternity has already passed. I called my aunt Pam to let her know it had finally arrived, and she said it best, "now they can finallly rest." And I think I can too.

Our little Daysha is home

Well, it's official. Daysha is with Kassie Jo and Jesse now. Thanks to you both for taking this on. I, personally, couldn't be more proud of the both of you. I love you! Our family has its issues, but we know how to really come together.

Chelsey, if you are reading this, I am proud of you too. I know you are working hard to get things together. I love you too!
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This past Sunday, Pam, the girls and I went to visit my mom's gravesite. The grave stone is STILL not there, but is supposed to be there this Friday. It was a nice afternoon and I am really glad we all got to go together. Not only in honor of Mother's Day, but it was also my mom's birthday on May 16th. She would have been 52.

I just know that Grandma and Mom are up there in Heaven laughing about this orange cone. Mom probably wants to keep it, because she was that type of person. She always went against the grain and the "normal" thing to do. Maybe I will have to hi - jack the cone and put it somewhere for safe keeping. hehe

Pam was given a pine tree in honor of Grandma's donation of her body to science. We are in the process of checking with Clinton City to see if they would allow us to plant this at the cemetery, where it would always stand in honor of Grandma and her sacrifice.

Here are some photos we took of the flowers Crystal took, and the ones we took (with the cone). Pam bought some bleeding hearts, one of my mom's and grandma's favorite type of flowers.
I know Pam is going to kill me for putting this picture on, but oh well, she has to find me first...





As soon as the stone is finally in place, I will post pictures.

We'll get through this all

I know that since the heartbreaking passing of Aunt Debbie, everything seems like this family has been in a tailspin and can't seem to pull out of it, but just remember that it will all get better I truly believe that God has a plan for all of us. He takes the suffering when they call to him. I've seen it many of times working in the hospital. Our life lessons are the things that we need to cherish and embrace and I think that loosing your loved ones is part of our life lessons we learn compassion for people we might not have known we had. I know that with the loss of Aunt Debbie, Grandma, and in a way Daysha good has come and will continue to come. Loosing Aunt Debbie started to bring our family back together, something she has always tried to do since the first year Grandpa passed away. I remember she use to have family get-to-gethers at her house all the time. It also brought her kids closer and forgiveness was given and accepted. With Grandma brought the opportunity for her kids and grandkids to take care of her, she was showered with love and grace in her final days. This is a gift that every parents fears for their kids but secretly loves. No parent wants to burden their kids with death, it's hard as it is already. But to return the love of shelter, warmth, kisses, hugs, and LOVE we were all given by our parents is an emotion that is truly to hard to put into words. Think how lucky we all were to give that gift especially for those who lived at my moms and did it day in and day out. Also the heart break of Daysha, please don't frown on this as a loss of our sweet, fun, forever busy niece. Think of it as a blessing, her mom will finally get the help she needs, and Daysha and Chealsie will have a chance in this world. For to long did some of the kids in our family have to watch their parents move from home to home, watch them loose jobs, money, going with out, frivolous spending habits on what seems to corrupt this world and our family (drugs). We as the kids who went through it should not want to do the same to our own kids. Jesse and I are trying our best to become foster parents so we can bring Daysha home with us until my sister and Daysha can start to live a healthy life again. This is a beginning for our family, for every death is a new birth well let our new birth be that the Quigley family become closer again. Let us live in joy and happiness. We have to start somewhere, don't let the loss of Aunt Debbie and Grandma be our demise, let it be our strength. Don't let fear get to you about Daysha please think and embrace the opportunity it will give her and her mother.

I love our family lets pull through and let our family shine.